Also, in the rarest of all occasions in which a certain person decides to read my blog , comes across this and finds any connection with himself.....I would say....grow up darl!!! You are soo self obsessed :P
Here goes...
I hate the way you suddenly pop into my life,...when I am least prepared...
I hate it more when you suddenly disappear....forgeting me completely...
But what I hate the most is my anticipation of ur popping-in when you are away and my fear of your disappearence once u are around...
I hate the way you stare at me as if I were beautiful...
I hate it more when you tell me that I am beautiful...
But what I hate the most is how u manage to make an ugly duckling like me FEEL beautiful
I hate how u can manage to make my cheeks hot...I never used to blush before!
I hate that stupid thing you do with your eyes making me feel a strange warmth...
But what I hate the most is how I get stuck between the heat of my cheeks and the heat of your eyes...
I hate that goblin glint of your eyes...
I hate that outrageously awesome tilt of your mouth...
But damn!! I soo hate it when I just cant take my eyes off you when you have that glint and that tilt on..
I hate the way you try to get naughty...
I hate that pathetic face u make before letting go off me when I show u angery-eyes...
But what I hate the most is that u listen to me... everytime...
I hate the way you are always so confused...
I hate it more that you even confuse the ever so sure me...
What I hate the most is that I enjoy those confusions..
I hate it when you fill my eyes with tears...you should know that I dont like being sad
I hate it more when you make me smile....without any reason at all!!
I hate it the most when I am crying and some thought of yours crosses my mind making me smile
I hate when you make me feel dumb...as if all my senses were on fire...
I hate it more when you call me "dumb"...and tell me that u love it
I hate it the most when you make me want to act "dumb"...
I hate it when you show extra care...
I hate it when you say "I dont care"...
I hate it the most that I care about your care...
I hate it when you say "I dont care"...
I hate it the most that I care about your care...
I hate it when you never pick up my calls ...and I atlast accept the truth that I am not wanted anymore...
I hate it more when after days of not picking up, u suddenly call me and act as if everything's the same...
But what I hate the most is when I believe that everything is indeed the same...
I hate it when you lie, your pupils becoming stiff telling me the truth while your voice showing all the conviction it can...
I hate it when I realize you still have to lie to me....
But I hate it the most when I end up believing you each time, everytime...
I hate the way you depress me and make me really sad...
I hate it more when you make me lose all interest in everything I like to do...
But what I hate the most is that only you inspire me again....without even knowing that you do
I hate how you make all that anger I wasn't even aware of surface
I hate that u brought hatred back into my life again...
But what I hate the most is the fact that I know its not hate but actually an overwhelming amount of love that u filled my heart with, only enabling me to realize the feeling of hatred...
I hate it more when you make me say "I hate you" so many many times...
but what I hate the most is that I dont hate you at all...
I hate it that you would never read this...
I hate it more that you may read this...
I hate it the most that if you do ...you would never tell me
I hate it that you give me so many reasons to hate you...
I hate it more that almost all of them are true...
But what I hate the most is that I just cant ever manage to hate you....
PS:
To anyone reading this;
this is my first attempt at romance. So in case you find it too mushy...excuse me...
To PA;
If u r reading this....I swear on the entire race of mankind, women-kind....and the kind that lies in between....I DO NOT HAVE A BOYFRIEND!
"I hate it when you never pick up my calls ...and I atlast accept the truth that I am not wanted anymore.."
ReplyDeleteYou of all ppl are saying this... I 'DE'finitely disagree
@anonymous: I would have tried to justify... had I known who this person is who 'DE'finitely disagrees...
ReplyDelete@anonymous: U idiot!!! changed ur name to "anonymous chand or wat??? waise suits u btr than saksham :P
ReplyDeleteand wot do u mean by "de" finitely disagree?? DUDE, THIS IS FICTION
Mushy gooey...awesomey! Loved every bit!
ReplyDelete@mangoman: :) :) :)
ReplyDeletewow! is this a song?
ReplyDelete@anonymous: NO!! come on...it doesnt even rhyme!!
ReplyDeletei'm left speechless at this... truly loved it.
ReplyDeletepretty sure everyone can connect with this.. either at the receiving end or at the giving end..
ReplyDeleten the thing i hate most abt 'her' is how she blurs up the diffrnce between hatred and love wrt her.. i dnt knw if i hate her or love her anymore..
@saksham: thank u soo much.... its a real honour... da comment...oops..."compliment" coming frm u!!!
ReplyDelete@mr.nobody: mmm....yeah...thanx for reading...keep visiting...nd ..mmm...all the best fr resolving ur confusion!!
ReplyDeletesacchi, everyone can connect with this, even SAX! :P
ReplyDelete@mr. nobody - you have a blog too kranT?
@abhirut: thnk u :)...
ReplyDeleteyeah! imagine saksham!! that "thing" has human emotions too!!!
I hate it that I had not read ur blog posts before..
ReplyDeleteI love the innocence, the way she connects her thoughts and ends up loving the guy after knowing the truth!:)
Wish u a fantastic,fun filled n love dipped 2011.
Cheers to life :)
p.s. - love the way u wrote the introductory para. lol !
@mani: thanku so much!!
ReplyDeleteU might not have read my blog, but guess what, I have read a lot of urs :)
the introductory para was important...frnds and family-ooof!! ;)
u too have a beautiful year ahead...hpy new year :)
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ReplyDeleteWish I could believe its your first attempt at romance... exceptional play of words n emotions....
ReplyDelete@anuj: thanks!! huge complimnt!! :) :)
ReplyDeleteIf you wouldnt have so insecurely put up a disclaimer, maybe I wouldnt have doubted this was based on me. ;)
ReplyDelete@anonymous: well I wasn't insecure then...but I really am now... who r u :O
ReplyDeleteBetter if I remain anonymous for now!
ReplyDeleteremain so fr ever, if that suits u
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