Friday, November 12, 2010

GENUINE HATRED!

Disclaimer:  In case that you, a member of the society for the most misfortunate mishappenings on planet earth ( read: friends) or you, frantic panic alarm systems,( read: family) come across this, I would like to provide the kind information that this post is only a piece of fiction, and any resemblance to any person dead or alive is purely co-incidental ( only I think that nothing "pure" exists in todays world ...and well...a lady neva tells ;))...
Also, in the rarest of all occasions in which a certain person decides to read my blog , comes across this and finds any connection with himself.....I would say....grow up darl!!! You are soo self obsessed :P

 Here goes...

I hate the way you suddenly pop into my life,...when I am least prepared...
I hate it more when you suddenly disappear....forgeting me completely...
But what I hate the most is my anticipation of ur popping-in when you are away and my fear of your disappearence once u are around...

I hate the way you stare at me as if I were beautiful...
I hate it more when you tell me that I am beautiful...
But what I hate the most is how u manage to make an ugly duckling like me FEEL beautiful



I hate how u can manage to make my cheeks hot...I never used to blush before!
I hate that stupid thing you do with your eyes making me feel a strange warmth...
But what I hate the most is how I get stuck between the heat of my cheeks and the heat of your eyes...




I hate that goblin glint of your eyes...
I hate that outrageously awesome tilt of your mouth...
But damn!! I soo hate it when  I just cant take my eyes off you when you have that glint and that tilt on..



I hate the way you try to get naughty...
I hate that pathetic face u make before letting go off me when I show u  angery-eyes...
But what I hate the most is that u listen to me... everytime...



I hate the way you are always so confused...
I hate it more that you even confuse the ever so sure me...
What I hate the most is that I enjoy those confusions..



I hate it when you fill my eyes with tears...you should know that I dont like being sad
I  hate it more when you make me smile....without any reason at all!!
I hate it the most when I am crying and some thought of yours crosses my mind making me smile



I hate when you make me feel dumb...as if all my senses were on fire...
I hate it more when you call me "dumb"...and tell me that u love it
I hate it the most when you make me want to act "dumb"...


 
I hate it when you show extra care...
I hate it when you say "I dont care"...
I hate it the most that I care about your care...



I hate it when you never pick up my calls ...and I atlast accept the truth that I am not wanted anymore... 
I hate it more when after days of not picking up, u suddenly  call me and act as if everything's the same...
But what I hate the most is when I believe that everything is indeed the same...




I hate it when you lie, your pupils becoming stiff telling me the truth while your voice showing all the conviction it can...
I hate it when I realize you still have to lie to me....
But I hate it the most when I end up believing you each time, everytime...




I hate the way you depress me and make me really sad...
I hate it more when you make me lose all interest in everything I like to do...
But what I hate the most is that only you inspire me again....without even knowing that you do



I hate how you make all that anger I wasn't even aware of  surface
I hate that u brought hatred back into my life again...
But what I hate the most is the fact that I know its not hate but actually an overwhelming amount of love that u filled my heart with, only enabling me to realize the feeling of hatred...



I hate that u act so hateful so many many times...
I hate it more when you make me say "I hate you" so many many times...
but what I hate the most is that I dont hate you at all...



I hate it that you would never read this...
I hate it more that you may read this...
I hate it the most that if you do ...you would never tell me



I hate it that you give me so many reasons to hate you...
I hate it more that almost all of them are true...
But what I hate the most is that I just cant ever manage to hate you....




PS: 
To anyone reading this;
this is my first attempt at romance. So in case you find it too mushy...excuse me...

To PA;
If u r reading this....I swear on the entire race of mankind, women-kind....and the kind that lies in between....I DO NOT HAVE A BOYFRIEND! 



23 comments:

  1. "I hate it when you never pick up my calls ...and I atlast accept the truth that I am not wanted anymore.."

    You of all ppl are saying this... I 'DE'finitely disagree

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  2. @anonymous: I would have tried to justify... had I known who this person is who 'DE'finitely disagrees...

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  3. @anonymous: U idiot!!! changed ur name to "anonymous chand or wat??? waise suits u btr than saksham :P
    and wot do u mean by "de" finitely disagree?? DUDE, THIS IS FICTION

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  4. Mushy gooey...awesomey! Loved every bit!

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  5. wow! is this a song?

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  6. @anonymous: NO!! come on...it doesnt even rhyme!!

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  7. i'm left speechless at this... truly loved it.

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  8. pretty sure everyone can connect with this.. either at the receiving end or at the giving end..
    n the thing i hate most abt 'her' is how she blurs up the diffrnce between hatred and love wrt her.. i dnt knw if i hate her or love her anymore..

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  9. @saksham: thank u soo much.... its a real honour... da comment...oops..."compliment" coming frm u!!!

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  10. @mr.nobody: mmm....yeah...thanx for reading...keep visiting...nd ..mmm...all the best fr resolving ur confusion!!

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  11. sacchi, everyone can connect with this, even SAX! :P

    @mr. nobody - you have a blog too kranT?

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  12. @abhirut: thnk u :)...
    yeah! imagine saksham!! that "thing" has human emotions too!!!

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  13. I hate it that I had not read ur blog posts before..
    I love the innocence, the way she connects her thoughts and ends up loving the guy after knowing the truth!:)

    Wish u a fantastic,fun filled n love dipped 2011.
    Cheers to life :)

    p.s. - love the way u wrote the introductory para. lol !

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  14. @mani: thanku so much!!
    U might not have read my blog, but guess what, I have read a lot of urs :)
    the introductory para was important...frnds and family-ooof!! ;)

    u too have a beautiful year ahead...hpy new year :)

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  16. Wish I could believe its your first attempt at romance... exceptional play of words n emotions....

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  17. @anuj: thanks!! huge complimnt!! :) :)

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  18. If you wouldnt have so insecurely put up a disclaimer, maybe I wouldnt have doubted this was based on me. ;)

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  19. @anonymous: well I wasn't insecure then...but I really am now... who r u :O

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  20. Better if I remain anonymous for now!

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