What happens when you really want to run, escape to use the correct word, rush to something, you are dying(yes,literally!!!) to hold on to...and you CAN NOT!!!!
Your entire body actually aches, to reach out to it....you feel as if the next breath is surely,SURELY going to be your last one...and the next moment is going to be ur end, unless your eyes get the solace of glimpsing that thing....You wanna see, touch, feel...that thing....realise that it actually exists, it isnt just in ur fantasy....That you werent dreaming when you saw it the last time...it actually happened to you!!!
You think...no, you rather ''know'', that you just can not carry on any longer without it....Even one singal glimpse, one singal sound,any form of communication would be enough to let you breathe again.....But...
You do not get it....you may die for all you know,feeling its absence every other moment....and perhaps, you would be happy to,well if not death, then 'something' radical.......letting the pain go...feeling the relief...BUT YOU CAN NOT!!!!!